friday is always great because according to my dictionary, it's nurulhuda bte ayub's day. lunched at our favourite and always having the same exact dish. it became like a tradition. and i'm always always so eager to hear what she've got to tell about the other days that we didn't get to meet. i don't know what tp'll be like without her. in a way, i guess she's one of the very few who had stick by me throughout. infact, the only one. gracias gracias.

tomorow, national's day. my dear classmate, safi turned 17. i've always wondered if he ever made it into the newspaper or news on the day that he was born. it's so cool. anyway, happy birthday! (:
and tomorow too, 4e5 gathering at ms oon house. i really miss deborah, hema and everyone else. i swear i couldn't wait till tomorow but knowing few pailangs can make it, kind of bring my mood down. nevertheless, i should party like a rockstar coz next week onwards, i'll be starting my revision. sad life.

i really miss ainy and fiqa alot. it's super dee duper hard to meet up with them coz usually they have other thgs they're involve in. likewise for me. from what i've read from other blogs, o levels nearing. so i guess i should not take so much of their time. sometimes i must admit it's really hard to grasp on what we have coz in a second, it slips out of your hand. things definitely felt different. but i want thgs to remain. to stay.

i have a problem. a major problem. a problem of letting go. truth to be told, what happened, the drastic change, the sudden change of personality, i still could not let go. even if it happened a year ago. i'm still concern, i still care, i still anticipated for the day everythg falls into place. but who am i to kid? it just wouldn't happen. everyone have their own route to take. they won't care less of the old abandoned one.

i guess hearing pigeon detective songs blasting from my idiotic sony ericsson became a regularity. i am totally avoiding the little clues you probably try to hint each time, each night, each day. i don't want nostalgic. i don't want any flashbacks. i want you and me to be two completely different words. i don't want to take any chances.

and the other. i am simply overwhelmed. to be honest, anytime, anyday, anywhere, i could simply go onboard and follow where it brings me. but would it be as promising? it's really frustrating to figure out the codes behind it. it gets ironic sometimes.

i think. now. this instance. is very bizarre.

Nurul Ain Norazman
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i'm a smooth operator in the daylight
and a dancer in the dark