it's when at times like this, you just wish that the floor will open up and swallow you up to nothingness. i swear i broke out in sweats upon receiving it. i think i should just be save than sorry. and if that's the case, i must do what i have to do. and that is to email him. i'll just have to face whatever that comes next.

customers are purely bitches. i wonder where does all those years of learning goes to? the customer has no respect whatsoever and definitely does not deserve one from me in return. i shouldnt have even shed a single tears but i did. and it wasnt even my fault. i had two witnesses for god damn sake. but in the end,i still crumbled. if i could give her a tight slap, i would. thanks for spoiling my already upsetting day and the last day of the year. thk you hafizah, wanie and shikin for being such great sweethearts. and the very very encouraging text msg from my baby haaaaaaaaaaJAR.(:

just when i thought i could slack for a few while for the coming week or two, the datelines of the sumful of projects came lining up. ive got to start on my work real soon and probably start revising some of my work. you see, i'm not smart. i need alot of hardwork to excel. and i suck at being hard working.

i really think the year ended with full disappointment for me. i had to skip countdown with workmates, customers tested my level of tolerance the whole time at check in, and many other things that i dont wish to mention here. in addition, i'm down with flu, cough, ulcers and sore eyes. i felt like such a slob. i wonder when will the world end. hah. and i felt rather sad. i only have one question in my head tonight and that is "where did all the good times go?" i miss my friends alot. and i really mean my words. but i know it doesnt really matter at all. cause things are just going around in ciricles. but i feel so grateful to have my parents with me tonight. i felt a million much better after talking to them and letting off all the steam. and the hugged from ibu always washes away every single terrible feelings that i have. always.

so now, happy new year man kinds. (:

and oh,

as much as i hate stereotyping, i just have to.well in this case, that is. well, boys will be boys.
dear friend, if i am your girlfriend, i will not be so happy or keen with the thing that you're up to. in the first place, you are already not conveying a positive first impression of yourself. if you could be doing this to her, you'll be repeating this thing that is probably going to turn into a habit, to me in near future. and i really think it's not easy for two opposite gender to be friends without having any feelings growing for each other. cause let me tell you,i've been there, done that. i am not being rude or being some arrogant fucker or some anti-social person who doesnt want to meet and greet new faces, but i just dont want any party getting hurt. i know well enough where things will head to. and sorry, but i dont wish to add on the number of friends that i already have. i am very satisfied with having 2 bestfriends and several mutual friends for now. let's just remain as strangers where things is less complicated.

Nurul Ain Norazman
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i'm a smooth operator in the daylight
and a dancer in the dark